Cleanliness is next to Godliness – Jack

Cleanliness is next to Godliness. This is not scripture; however it played over and over in my mind. I had felt the Incredible Power of God’s Love come upon my soul, via The Holy Spirit of Christ Jesus, and I was overwhelmed to the point of anguish and even terror. As an atheist for some thirty-five years, my biblical knowledge was limited to say the least, and so grabbing at anything I could from my past. These words came to mind. I was petrified. I knew God was very real and as He told me He loved me I wept profusely for the extent of my sins; I was unclean.

Serving with the UN in Cambodia – 1993








My life had been engulfed in sin. As a child I had been abused and as an adolescent I took to drinking and drugs, which led to stealing and violent behaviour. At seventeen I joined the military out of necessity, for fear of retribution from the law. Far from making a man out of me, the military indulged my sinful nature. I could drink more and womanise openly. In fact, it was commended! The better the drinker, the more women, the greater man you were. I was selected for operational service in Cambodia (a great honour); but there I saw first-hand the capacity for evil humans truly have. I had no answers, and the pain of it dug deep into my soul (a nonexistent soul).

Every relationship I entered failed, generally due to my erratic sinful behaviour. Women would love me, yet with no love of God in me I certainly could not love them as a man should. I committed adultery numerous times. I hated myself. By twenty-eight I was a successful soldier carrying a heart of horrors. When my father died of a heart attack, I left the military to seek my fortune. Perhaps money would cure me.

Receiving Bachelors Degree in Ministry

Receiving Bachelors Degree in Ministry

I quickly realised I had passion for business and a capacity to learn fast! I entered the world of the internet, websites and corporate endeavour. Within two short years I was in Silicon Valley working for a global enterprise. I was pinching myself. It had been a surreal journey, one that included million-dollar deals and open-ended expense accounts. I drank considerably. Expensive cars (red or black only), travel, more women and more wine. My soul remained in anguish and despair. Nothing was appeasing the hole in my heart. No success, no trophy, no drug, no woman— nothing was removing the torment inside. I attempted suicide numerous times, at one point with a loaded automatic rifle at my forehead and tears streaming down my face, finger taking up the first trigger pressure. By thirty-five I was at the very bottom. I was an alcoholic and drug addict and sex addict! Finally I knew I was helpless. My pride was humbled and a contrite heart was laid bare. The metal was ready for forging into a different type of soldier.

There are no earthly words to proclaim the depth of Christ’s love for humanity. His mercy for the lost transcends human understanding, and His ability to turn the sinner righteous— to make what was unclean ,clean— has no boundary. Hebrews 10:22 states, ‘Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.’

Today, thanks to Christ alone, I am clean. The pain inside is gone. I serve as a missionary Pastor, (completed a degree in Theology) then the Lord prompted me to complete a degree in nursing and volunteer as a Street Chaplain (now eight years serving).  The Lord also directed me to start  in Australia, the brother organisation to House of Hope Philippines. A Christian Drug and Alcohol rehab centre. And recently God guided me to help open a rehab in Kenya –

To Christ be all the glory.

For in Christ and through Christ, cleanliness is next to Godliness. As the Christ said to the Leper ‘I am willing – BE CLEAN!’

Receiving Bachelors of Nursing

Receiving Bachelors of Nursing


Transcribed from the book – ‘First Love’